I am going to give this BufBloPoFo thing a shot this year. I didn't participate last year, but it did get me to begin this blog which I haven't been keeping up with as regularly as I would like. Maybe participating will give me the kick in the pants that I need in order to become a more regular blogger. Anyway, here we go....the three biggest things going on in my life in no particular order:
Getting in shape
Finding a career that I can be happy with
Managing finances
I have decided to get myself together this year. Up until I decided to focus on these things, I was happy with my life. I have a great boyfriend, a great dog, and great friends. I live in a nice apartment, I get along with my family, and I have steady income. I realized though, that by just floating along without any concrete goals, I am not really living for anything.
I have been wanting to get in shape for some time, but I have a better reason for it now. Previously, the reason for getting in shape had been to look and feel better. My reasons have changed. My grandmother passed away earlier this year, and watching the whole thing happen was scary. I remember her diet before the decline started. She ate twinkies, cookies, candy, jelly beans, gum drops, licorice, and anything else that was at least 80% sugar, nothing else. She didn't take care of herself and I believe that that is what caused her to slip in and out of reality so much. The thought of going crazy scares the shit out of me. So does the thought of dying before my kids are grown. I work with a girl who lost her brother at 40 due to a heart attack and her sister just had a stroke. Don't get me wrong, I still want to look good, but I also want to avoid the death and craziness for as long as possible.
If you have ever read my blog before then you know that my job satisfaction is usually non-existant. I have been dealing with it for several years and I could do it forever, I just don't really want to. I like the thought of teaching for a few reasons, it is the only part of my job that I like, I want to work when I have kids but I want to be home with them, and I really like the idea of summers off. I have been putting this off for a while, but I think I am ready to take the next step. I will be looking into what I need to do to become a teacher through UB's program.
Managing finances I still don't have a solution for. I have no money and a lot that I want to do. I want a house, I want to get married, I want a car, I want a kid, I want furniture that doesn't fall apart, and I want my credit cards paid off. All of these things take money that I don't have right now. I am slowly coming to realize that even though I can't do it now, patience will get me there. I will have all of these things someday. My financial management plan is this....wait.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Friday, January 9, 2009
Happy New Year
Last year ended on a strong note. Three Christmas celebrations, two weddings, and one day off. I got to spend time with people that I was missing, people that I didn't know that I was missing, and people that are close to me here. I ate too much good food and drank too many good drinks. Dave passed the BAR exam and I made some goals for the new year.
The old stand by, I am going to get fit. Sure, I want to lose a bunch of weight, wear a size 4 and turn heads, but more than that, I hate the way I feel right now. As I type, I am watching the Food network on which there is a pizza made of crust, hamburger, sausage, pepperoni, ham, bacon, and cheese. Why do you think we have an obesity problem in the United States? I haven't eaten a vegetable today aside from the shredded lettuce that came with my flautas at dinner.
I am in the market for a new hobby. I have nobody to pole dance with anymore because my classmate moved out of Buffalo and it just isn't fun alone since my hands are too sweaty to grip the pole anyway. I am interested in Kickboxing (expensive), running (it is winter in Buffalo and I hate the cold), and/or some kind of classes just to get my mind back into shape. I think that my brain is so used to doing the same thing all of the time that it has gotten as mushy as the rest of me. I am open to suggestions.
The old stand by, I am going to get fit. Sure, I want to lose a bunch of weight, wear a size 4 and turn heads, but more than that, I hate the way I feel right now. As I type, I am watching the Food network on which there is a pizza made of crust, hamburger, sausage, pepperoni, ham, bacon, and cheese. Why do you think we have an obesity problem in the United States? I haven't eaten a vegetable today aside from the shredded lettuce that came with my flautas at dinner.
I am in the market for a new hobby. I have nobody to pole dance with anymore because my classmate moved out of Buffalo and it just isn't fun alone since my hands are too sweaty to grip the pole anyway. I am interested in Kickboxing (expensive), running (it is winter in Buffalo and I hate the cold), and/or some kind of classes just to get my mind back into shape. I think that my brain is so used to doing the same thing all of the time that it has gotten as mushy as the rest of me. I am open to suggestions.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Things are looking up
The show is over. The best thing that I got out of it was meeting some people that could become friends. Some were in the show with me, some were not. I feel like I am getting back to my roots in a way. I grew up on stage and with theater people. While it is true that I dropped my theater major because I didn't like the actors, they were interested in more of a Hollywood main stream audience. Don't get me wrong, if someone said that they wanted me to be the next 90210 star, I would be all over it. However, that is not why I like theater. I like being on stage with everyone clapping for me, I like the goofiness that playing a character brings out in me, and I like being around people who don't think I am (too) weird for knowing every word to a variety of musicals. I am most comfortable in this setting even though it has been so long. I am glad to be making new friends.
I am out of the race. I think I broke my foot. I went for a run on Monday and pushed myself too hard. On Tuesday, my hip hurt and on Wednesday morning I was good. Then, while walking in the parking lot at work, my foot started to hurt and it has hurt ever since. It got worse over the weekend after strike, and I was miserable all day at work today because of it. I made an appointment with a doctor for tomorrow but now it is starting to feel better. I am not going to call off the appointment yet, we'll see how the morning goes tomorrow. I didn't think I was going to be able to run the whole thing, but I am disappointed that I am not even going to try.
In other news...I get a haircut this week, I have a vacation coming up, Alex's play was very funny, Hillary got a job, T&K have a little A (congrats), work is getting better, I want to read more, I am going to Chautauqua this weekend, and I am very sleepy. Good night!
I am out of the race. I think I broke my foot. I went for a run on Monday and pushed myself too hard. On Tuesday, my hip hurt and on Wednesday morning I was good. Then, while walking in the parking lot at work, my foot started to hurt and it has hurt ever since. It got worse over the weekend after strike, and I was miserable all day at work today because of it. I made an appointment with a doctor for tomorrow but now it is starting to feel better. I am not going to call off the appointment yet, we'll see how the morning goes tomorrow. I didn't think I was going to be able to run the whole thing, but I am disappointed that I am not even going to try.
In other news...I get a haircut this week, I have a vacation coming up, Alex's play was very funny, Hillary got a job, T&K have a little A (congrats), work is getting better, I want to read more, I am going to Chautauqua this weekend, and I am very sleepy. Good night!
Saturday, August 23, 2008
WORK
The job is getting better. My boss was off this week and I was able to do my work without him interfering. I earned a lot of points with some of the people that work for me by buying them donuts and washing cars. The 2 people that have made my transition most difficult have put in their 2 weeks notice. I have hired some really great new people and am almost happy there now.
HALF MARATHON
I am still training for this race. It takes place in Boston on October 12th. I am supposed to be running 2 short runs (4 miles) per week and 1 long run (6 miles) per week. I have been busy with work and the play which has made it difficult to get out more than 2x/week. Also I have been getting blisters which make the decision to go out and run difficult. Just this morning I read about some prevention tips, but I don't know if it is ok to run on the blisters that I have.
While training the other day, I was nearing a very busy intersection when I heard a *boom* and looked up to see a guy getting out of his almost still moving car, a woman screaming in the middle of the road, and a guy on the ground next to her. My theory is that the driver tried to beat the oncoming traffic and made his left-hand turn as soon as the light turned green. He hit the guy in the crosswalk who had a "walk" sign. I kept on running because there was nothing I could do. Many people were reporting the accident, there was already a crowd around the guy in the road, and I only think I know what happened. Anyway, when I came back to that spot later everyone had gone. What did I learn? Look both ways before you cross the street.
THE PLAY
I am stage managing a show. While it was disappointing to not be in the cast, I am getting involved again. I have never really stage managed before. It is less fun than being in the cast because you have to manage people (which, you may remember, is what I do for a living and hate) but I am meeting new people who may allow me to be on stage again someday.
The job is getting better. My boss was off this week and I was able to do my work without him interfering. I earned a lot of points with some of the people that work for me by buying them donuts and washing cars. The 2 people that have made my transition most difficult have put in their 2 weeks notice. I have hired some really great new people and am almost happy there now.
HALF MARATHON
I am still training for this race. It takes place in Boston on October 12th. I am supposed to be running 2 short runs (4 miles) per week and 1 long run (6 miles) per week. I have been busy with work and the play which has made it difficult to get out more than 2x/week. Also I have been getting blisters which make the decision to go out and run difficult. Just this morning I read about some prevention tips, but I don't know if it is ok to run on the blisters that I have.
While training the other day, I was nearing a very busy intersection when I heard a *boom* and looked up to see a guy getting out of his almost still moving car, a woman screaming in the middle of the road, and a guy on the ground next to her. My theory is that the driver tried to beat the oncoming traffic and made his left-hand turn as soon as the light turned green. He hit the guy in the crosswalk who had a "walk" sign. I kept on running because there was nothing I could do. Many people were reporting the accident, there was already a crowd around the guy in the road, and I only think I know what happened. Anyway, when I came back to that spot later everyone had gone. What did I learn? Look both ways before you cross the street.
THE PLAY
I am stage managing a show. While it was disappointing to not be in the cast, I am getting involved again. I have never really stage managed before. It is less fun than being in the cast because you have to manage people (which, you may remember, is what I do for a living and hate) but I am meeting new people who may allow me to be on stage again someday.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
They hate me! Moving on....
I am very lonely at the new job. I don't really have a lot of help from anyone, and the employees don't like me. I have received nasty (boarder-line threatening) messages that have hurt my feelings a lot more than they should. My boss says, "It happens". I am very sad at work lately.
In other news, I am thinking of running the half-marathon in Boston in October. I started the training yesterday and it went well. We'll see if I can keep it up.
I am also hoping to get involved in the theater community once again. It has been many years since I was last a part of a show and while I will not immediately be returning to the stage, I am going to try and get my foot in the door. To those of you who didn't know me in my younger years, I grew up on stage from the age of 5 and have missed it since I stopped in 1999.
I am back to eating healthy and I feel good about it. I went to the Taste of Buffalo this weekend, enjoyed lots of food (none of which was "healthy option") and still lost 2 pounds. I hope to soon be able to fit back into my clothes. Also, I haven't been smoking.
While it is true that I am not yet enjoying the new job, it has given me more time to myself which has made me a happier person outside of work (as long as I am not thinking about it).
In other news, I am thinking of running the half-marathon in Boston in October. I started the training yesterday and it went well. We'll see if I can keep it up.
I am also hoping to get involved in the theater community once again. It has been many years since I was last a part of a show and while I will not immediately be returning to the stage, I am going to try and get my foot in the door. To those of you who didn't know me in my younger years, I grew up on stage from the age of 5 and have missed it since I stopped in 1999.
I am back to eating healthy and I feel good about it. I went to the Taste of Buffalo this weekend, enjoyed lots of food (none of which was "healthy option") and still lost 2 pounds. I hope to soon be able to fit back into my clothes. Also, I haven't been smoking.
While it is true that I am not yet enjoying the new job, it has given me more time to myself which has made me a happier person outside of work (as long as I am not thinking about it).
Monday, July 7, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
My new gig
The new job has its good and bad points. I'll start with the bad so that I can end this on a positive note.
Bad:
-I don't have a purpose. I don't do anything but try to look busy. There is no reason for this position to exist.
-My boss is a pussy. I don't really have much respect for people who won't stand up for themselves.
-The building that I work in is falling apart and has rats all over.
-I feel guilty leaving when the night manager comes in because he never gets to leave on time.
-The sexual harassment sucks.
Good:
-I spend so much time looking busy that people don't want to interrupt me which means I have to deal with many fewer problems.
-My boss is a pussy. I will be pushing him around in no time.
-Since the city has given us 90 days to figure out what we are going to do with the building, things in that area will be turning around soon.
-Although I feel guilty leaving the night manager, I have made it clear to everyone that I will not be staying longer than absolutely necessary. I get little to no argument here since they believe that I took a pay cut.
-I did not take a pay cut.
-While the sexual harassment was shocking and unsettling, it has given some of my former co-workers a good laugh. Also, it has made me appreciate the professional experience that I have and allowed me to find a starting point for when I begin to turn this place around.
-I have been getting home on average 2 hours earlier than I was at my last job. That 2 hours has made all of the difference in the world. One day I got home from work, watched tv, attended a festival where I ate dinner, and went to a friends house when I glanced at a clock and saw that I would have just been getting out of work had I still been at the last job. Joy!
All in all, I am satisfied with the move. There are many things that I have to adjust to and many people that I will have to fire before I will be completely happy, but I am confident that I will get there. If not, nobody should notice if I just leave for a few hours at a time to come home and nap.
Bad:
-I don't have a purpose. I don't do anything but try to look busy. There is no reason for this position to exist.
-My boss is a pussy. I don't really have much respect for people who won't stand up for themselves.
-The building that I work in is falling apart and has rats all over.
-I feel guilty leaving when the night manager comes in because he never gets to leave on time.
-The sexual harassment sucks.
Good:
-I spend so much time looking busy that people don't want to interrupt me which means I have to deal with many fewer problems.
-My boss is a pussy. I will be pushing him around in no time.
-Since the city has given us 90 days to figure out what we are going to do with the building, things in that area will be turning around soon.
-Although I feel guilty leaving the night manager, I have made it clear to everyone that I will not be staying longer than absolutely necessary. I get little to no argument here since they believe that I took a pay cut.
-I did not take a pay cut.
-While the sexual harassment was shocking and unsettling, it has given some of my former co-workers a good laugh. Also, it has made me appreciate the professional experience that I have and allowed me to find a starting point for when I begin to turn this place around.
-I have been getting home on average 2 hours earlier than I was at my last job. That 2 hours has made all of the difference in the world. One day I got home from work, watched tv, attended a festival where I ate dinner, and went to a friends house when I glanced at a clock and saw that I would have just been getting out of work had I still been at the last job. Joy!
All in all, I am satisfied with the move. There are many things that I have to adjust to and many people that I will have to fire before I will be completely happy, but I am confident that I will get there. If not, nobody should notice if I just leave for a few hours at a time to come home and nap.
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